my weaknesses

I hate how my weaknesses got to me i just find it weird how after all this time the tears finally came out. Why did it take so long? ...why now? ...i dont know but in a wierd way i feel better i guess all the depression about my dad and stuff....just poured out i feel a little better but i kinda still dont feel completely ok i just want to be loved i want too feel loved ...i feel like the little kid inside of me is sad,lonely misses his parents friends has nobody and just wants somebody to love him to make him feel better. To make him feel like he does not have a care in the world at all like nothing can stop him like nothing can hurt him to change him into a more...happyer person just happy...Is that too much to ask for ?....Is it...because if so tell me what too due ill do anything to be happy ...please take my feelings into consideration hug me....kiss me...tell me its ok tell me......everything....will be ok i know nothing lasts forever but im ditermined to make it work forever. I know i can be happy but why ....due i keep wanting to cry...please ...dont just stand there ...and watch me cry....dont walk away please dont walk away sweety ...please take my feelings into consideration see it from my point of view ...i know you have been through alot too babe...i understand that the last thing you need is more and more arguments... But what you dont see is that ...what happened with me was not your fault ...at all....i just wanted too cry why? Because i cant hold in my emotions in anymore im sad....and i just want to feel better i cant bottle it up ...im sorry the tears came out it was not your fault im sorry i cryed im sorry if i hurt your feelings im sorry i left im sorry i cant speak too you ... Im speechless im sorry i let my sensitivity get too me at that time ...place...i just felt like you could help me....i felt like i could tell you anything...and everything like i could trust you with my emotions and fears,tears,crys,problems,feelings.....my all ...im sorry if i hurt your feelings im so sorry...