early

Im skateboarding then when i get back home i get a phone call its my dad he says hi and how i am doing we talk for a while then he ...drops a bomb on me. He tells me hes leaving i ask where and he says california im standing there in shock im happy, yet sad im happy for him and how hes gonna get too see his mom and dad which is my grandpa and my grandma and his sister and brothers which are my aunt,uncles he said he wanted to leave because he was unhappy in new york i guess same reasons as myne i cant get mad if thats going to make him happy then i think he should go just relax and take some time off thing is...hes staying and thats what makes me sad because im not gonna be able to see him for a while. But i guess ill see him later then wish i could go with him but sadly i cant im gonna miss him...alott. I just got good yet bad news ...thats life.

Rock, paper, scissors

The computer might be using strategies like for example if you put rock it copys you on the next try or it might be in order like rock,scissors,paper or paper,rock,scissors. Like it could be in a random order or it just gets lucky or i dont know what to tell you honestly rock, paper, scissors is a game of guessing and in order to win well there isint any order there isint a cheat its a test of your luck and thats about it.

my weaknesses

I hate how my weaknesses got to me i just find it weird how after all this time the tears finally came out. Why did it take so long? ...why now? ...i dont know but in a wierd way i feel better i guess all the depression about my dad and stuff....just poured out i feel a little better but i kinda still dont feel completely ok i just want to be loved i want too feel loved ...i feel like the little kid inside of me is sad,lonely misses his parents friends has nobody and just wants somebody to love him to make him feel better. To make him feel like he does not have a care in the world at all like nothing can stop him like nothing can hurt him to change him into a more...happyer person just happy...Is that too much to ask for ?....Is it...because if so tell me what too due ill do anything to be happy ...please take my feelings into consideration hug me....kiss me...tell me its ok tell me......everything....will be ok i know nothing lasts forever but im ditermined to make it work forever. I know i can be happy but why ....due i keep wanting to cry...please ...dont just stand there ...and watch me cry....dont walk away please dont walk away sweety ...please take my feelings into consideration see it from my point of view ...i know you have been through alot too babe...i understand that the last thing you need is more and more arguments... But what you dont see is that ...what happened with me was not your fault ...at all....i just wanted too cry why? Because i cant hold in my emotions in anymore im sad....and i just want to feel better i cant bottle it up ...im sorry the tears came out it was not your fault im sorry i cryed im sorry if i hurt your feelings im sorry i left im sorry i cant speak too you ... Im speechless im sorry i let my sensitivity get too me at that time ...place...i just felt like you could help me....i felt like i could tell you anything...and everything like i could trust you with my emotions and fears,tears,crys,problems,feelings.....my all ...im sorry if i hurt your feelings im so sorry...

miss him

I miss your chubby self lol i miss your stupidity your humping of my bed lol he would randomly barge in my room when he just bought something nice or something good happened too him. He makes me lauph so badly lol i miss my brother brandon wish he still lived in ny i hope he comes baq i wonder what hes doing probably something dumb lol i miss you brandon.

crazy week

this week has been wierd and fun lol i partyed allot it was sick i went to the movies, spent time with family and saw my father hes ok but its funny how we have the same problems. Well i dont know but im done with my problems i guess i finally knocked sence into my head i never thought i would see the day that i would move on and stop living in the past but i guess you just have to be patient im ok things are finally calm and ok. I dont know why i could not see it sooner...but im good just have to due my work pass and then ill see what happens next cant wait for this summer.